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  • I’m never going to tell my parents I literally failed my math class. Or anything. Ever. I was going to. But they reminded why I wouldn’t want to in the first place.

    Quite frankly I had too much responsibility the past year for “not being responsible enough” apparently. Which is a major reason I failed the class with an F in the first place. No time to do shit and being so god damn tired all the time. Screwed myself over and I’m behind even more now and I’m fucking scared about whether or not I’m getting tuition for the next year. Which why I’m stopping the job and art school. Bc I still have to drive your asses around and all that other crap.

    Occasionally I’d like a person. kinda. Well more than likely more than kinda and the feeling lingers way too long for my liking. Then wonder why I have no game. Then evaluate myself and realize why the fuck anyone would like me romantically anyways bc I’m pretty much lame and not good at anything. My specs are inferior to most. Jack of many trades, master of none. Therefore I amount to nothing.

    It appears that Sooyoung has been to LACMA. I have not. I, a native of southern california has not gone to LACMA. WHILE SOOYOUNG A MEGA POP STAR FROM SOUTH KOREA WHO SUPPOSEDLY RARELY COMES TO CALIFORNIA OR THE US IN GENERAL HAS. SOMEONE TAKE ME TO LACMA, I NEED THAT OBLIGATORY LACMA PIC THAT EVERYONE ON MY FB TAKES. PLS.

    dont read this, im really just talking to myself. which is apparently weird to people. idek

    i need to lose weight. so i can look better in clothes. wow my priorities. but srsly like slim people are what makes clothes look so good. that and long legs. which i dont have. orz. UGH. i want to look good and totally kill in looks and style when i have to rush for the coed fraternity (most of my friends are in) im going to try and join during spring quarter. UGH THE PROCESS OF SHEDDING POUNDS THO. THAT LYFE IS NOT FO ME. UGHHHH I HAVENT WORKED OUT in forever and will die in the first 5 min srsly. i love menswear. and being thin helps enormous amounts to pull it off. in all the pictures and such of the beautiful people who pull it off, they’re typically very slim and tall. yes I notice these things. and they have a certain look, but im going to overlook that for my own sake. i need to dominate and make people think im cool lol wow my priorities ((again)).

    IM SO FAT KILL ME NOW. ok im just overweight. and why am i making it like its okay. its really not. shiet. fml. ugh i hate working out. not even i hate the idea of working out. but when im doing it im fine and sometimes cant stop. and thats really not good for you when you dont do it in a while. i need help. someone make me run or do some shit. i srsly cant get my own ass to do it. icant even do my damn homework. shit. i forgot to do my homework this whole fucking 3 day weekend. well im a dumbshit. wow this rant is stupid, what even. its like 2am i should sleep. ok bye.

    I don’t even know what league I’m in but I feel like everyone who’ve I’ve shown interest in I think is probably a level above me. Like idek. Ugh. Like not the people who are like “woah you’re hot” bc for them, I already know there’s most likely no chance in hell. But I mean for even regularish good looking people. Am I just downsizing myself….idek. But yea. But I’m not always so… Negative personally, for some people I feel like in a higher league I guess but other times I have no idea so I just out them above me….does that even make sense.

    Why is everything so difficult to find someone who likes you and you like back. Like forreal. I have trouble just making friends how the heck am I supposed to find my other half.

    family: treats you like shit
    family: constantly tells you how lazy and ungrateful you are
    family: says that you'll never have a successful future
    family: jokes around about things they know you're insecure about
    family: scoffs and makes fun of you for the things you enjoy
    family: are completely fucking surprised and offended that you don't like being around them and are eager to move out or get as far away as possible

    I can’t afford to follow my dreams. And they wont let me without a fight and strife, but that’s besides the point. So I’m just doing what they tell me to. Because in the end, it will pay off. Supposedly. If I follow the plan I should be able to do what I want later on, after it all. But. That’s so long. I mean, in the long run I’ll get there, where I truly want to be, but by then…..I don’t even know. People change. Thoughts, wants, etc change. But to be honest, I don’t think that this dream will change. Because it’s something that deep down, I truly want to do. So for now, I will suppress my own desires and act upon my duty. I have to, ere is no other option.

    taeyulseofany:

    Hypebeast-esk Big Bang VIP Fandom Shirt? 

    I wanted to try designing a t-shirt but had no idea what to do as of theme, so I attempted to make a fandom shirt that was more aesthetically appealing than most of the ones out there. It’s not even completely done from what I drew out, but since I fail at PS and shape making, and the fact it’s late, I stopped. And am now posting this.

    SO tell me what you think? Comments, questions, criticisms. things I can work on? Would you buy it or the final product? Of course, not that I plan on selling anything, this is just hypothetical….

    (Source: jessipls)

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